Been low and feeling ill

To understand a low you ideally should experience a low. Although never knowing what it is like to feel low is a feeling some would say is great, there are others who would say it is a missed experience. I have been feeling down recently and as I type this feel quite ill. I had something for Thursday I had started but never posted it. I was going to write something for today but could not think of something worth it. This is why I write this little update. We get so easily used to the pleasures in our lives that we can sometimes forget we should respect them. Friendship, love, life in general or what ever you can think is most important to you may not truly be important or known till it has gone.

To just fit in some people are willing to take risks they would not normally do. I took a risk and others around me did the same. Those risks we do can cause problems. I experienced something I had not for a long time a feeling of being needed. I exploited that and took risks that I felt were wrong. It is so easy to contradict ones own beliefs if feels good. Peer pressure, so easy to give in to because being around peers feels good. I changed some of my own strong beliefs because I wanted to fit in. I enjoyed it and now miss it. It is a wonder what peer pressure has caused to people around the world. What are people willing to do to fit in? I have been a sucker for peer pressure as I have always felt I did not belong. This can cause people to take advantage of me or gain from my actions. There are still some rules but I figure it will not last long so does not matter. Although I was right it did not last very long I am annoyed it ended like this. Let us leave it at that.