A dream I had it is in four parts

Missing

The first dream I had was about me going missing. I was somehow aware I was missing but did not tell anyone I was okay. I could see Facebook messages and people talking about me even in impossible places such as private chats with two people who knew me. I overheard people saying “remember that guy” and such. This dream was weird as although I remember most of it, the dream was mainly me over looking what people were saying about me. It was like every moment someone was talking about me I was over seeing it. The dream just faded and another dream came in.

Holiday with cats

I had been gone for a while and my dad was surprised to see me. I said don’t worry but I am not back long but we could get away for a few days if he wished. This is very rare for me as I never go anywhere with my dad. I and he then were in some hotel and we were in connecting rooms. The walls were plan white and had weird holes in the wall to store stuff. It had a very modern look. It was me my dad and my cat which had died a while back. This was very weird but my dad did not seem to notice the cat that had died a few years was with us. The dream went on to us going home with the cat and the other cat being at home waiting for us. We now had both cats that had died years back returned to the house. I then I said something how I need a see a mate and the dream faded.

Cloned mates girlfriend

This dream me and my mate was talking about a girl called Kathy. We both really liked her and I knew of a way we could both have our own version of her. I knew some glitch which I could use to obtain a clone of this Kathy girl. The project was successful and I took the clone and he took the original. The clone took a few days to wake up and was staying in a flat I was renting. When she woke up she wanted to go and see her grandmother which could cause problems if the real one had seen her recently or worse still was seeing her at the same time. I told her that her that her grandmother was away and that she were to stay over mine for a while. She went to sleep and I went to see my mate we met near the river and talked about the clone and how it was going. I was telling him it is not going to be easy to get her from seeing her family and I should get rid of her or take her away. My mate told me I shouldn’t go away again and that last time was bad. I did not really understand this so decided to get rid of her. The dream then started to fade.

Visiting the pope

The last of the four dreams I had and the most interesting and what really bought all three of the dreams together.

I had some how gone back to the 1980s and went to see the pope visiting England. Pope John Paul II visited the United Kingdom in 1982 so this may have been when I visited him. I saw him and went to talk to him although I can’t remember what about. I knew some stuff about him he didn’t know how I knew. I then left and thought I would go to the year I was born 1988. I hung around a bit and met a girl and talked to her and we hung out and got on good. I kept going to see and really liked her.

She invited me to see her family or something and I decided to go with her. We were both sitting on some grass near a building. Her family or friends were sitting talking and eating some home cooked food she had made. She told me she really likes me and she thinks we should be together. I told her that there is something I had no told her and that I have to before I could date her. She was scared of what I had not told her. I was about to tell her and then she interrupted me and got out a photo album for us to look at. We were looking at pictures and one photo had 1984 in the corner. I quickly asked her how old she was in that picture and she replied 16. I then asked her how old she thinks I was in 1984 and she said “like 18?” I said that I was not even born then. She thought I was being stupid and told me not to be stupid and asked when I was born. I told her I was born in April 1988. She said don’t be stupid that was only months ago. I then held her hands and we looked into each others arms and I told her “that’s what I needed to tell you, I am a time traveller from the year 2010 and I am going to have to go back there”. She didn’t believe me and I said that I wanted her to go with me. She looked at me and was confused I said that she can go with me but we would need to go somewhere where we would not be seen for me to show her I could time travel. She asked me if I had any proof and I wondered what I could show her.

I had a box of menthol cigarettes and offered her one. The package was new and a different design to the ones they had in 1988. She said she would come with me and I told the other people we were with that we was going for a walk alone and would be back in a bit. We then walked into a stairwell of a near by building and I closed the door I then lit the cigarette and realised I had a problem. I had forgotten how to time travel and I may be stuck in 1988. Knowing that I was also alive and not even 1 year old at this point somewhere else in England and that I would not discover time travel for another 22 years I was scared and woke up.

The dreams all seem to flow together. The reason I was missing was I had time travelled away. The reason I could see everyone’s responses was because I was keeping an eye out. When I returned I knew it wouldn’t be for long so I thought I would go on holiday with my dad something he has wanted us to do for years now. I then got distracted by a girl who my mate was also interested in and used a time travel glitch to some how clone her. I then got rid of her and whist grieving I went back to the 1980s when I met the girl. I thought this was an interesting time how it was only as I was waking up I put all the dreams together. There is however another thought that I only thought about after I had wrote this but what if the last part came during the first part and the reason I was away was because I was with the girl. Also the reason I needed to get back was because people was missing me. However if this is true how come I couldn’t just return to the day after I left? Also why was she not in the first part and why was I was scared to be left in 1988. I feel the order really is 1 to 4 as I thought when I was waking up. I hope you enjoyed the dream.

[Thought] Your life is your life...

The life's of others are always more tempting than your own but it is your own life you must live. Knowing the fails of others allows you to avoid making those mistakes the games we play must end. Friendships start and end the problem is not always someone else's but your own. One must learn to live with their mistakes to live..

One Year on

One year ago was the first post on this website. Now one year on this site has got 107 Posts. This site has had comments people of all ages, religions and backgrounds. The blog may not have massive amounts of readers but I feel one year on it has been good.

Opps yes this was meant to go on the 1st of April....

The hunger problem

How do you know when you need to eat? You get hungry right? The physiological feeling of being hungry is not always when you are hungry but you know what it is because you have felt it before.

The problem is if this is a chemical imbalance what is making people really eat? Let us have an example, there is a boy born in a place without any animals about or other humans. The boy’s mum is dead. The baby it’s self has only ever eaten via its stomach. Forgetting the fact a baby would have very low chances of managing to survive on it’s own for a minute. How would the baby know to eat? Eating seems to be the absorbing of other things via the stomach and the baby will remember it from being inside his mother. But where does the baby get the urge to put things in its mouth? How does that link come about?

The idea of this is that if some how the baby still managed to get fed via the umbilical cord, which according to Wikipedia “supplies the fetus with oxygenated, nutrient-rich blood from the placenta. Conversely, the umbilical arteries return the deoxygenated, nutrient-depleted blood.” The problem is what is making things eat? There is nothing to relate to if all relation is removed.

The mouth is used to breathe why would anything risk damaging or blocking that to stop a feeling in the stomach? Without knowing about eating why would someone eat? The question is why would someone put food in a place so far away from the stomach? If there really is an urge to put food anything surely the rectum is nearer?

Is there something that inside really tells us where to eat? Is the fact we can swallow a hint? Also without teeth how would a baby guess it can brake up food? What I am saying is this is a problem that was over come early on but what if there is another reason we eat? What if there was a new hunger for something else? Would we know how to fill it?

[Thought] What is the professional way for something new?

If something is new, does that make everyone including the inventor amateur at it? If something unresearched but discovered by mistake does that make them professional I that area? What determines the title amateur or professional if what it is has not been seen before?

Regret and luck stems

A lot of people will say they have something to regret yet to regret is rarely thought about. An example, A young male aged 19, messing around trips over lands in the road and gets hit by a car. The young male is likely to regret messing around by the side of the road. Whether or not it is unlucky such action happened will be brought up later. Let’s continue the example and give the young male a name the young name is James, he wants to be a football player and is quite good. The day of the accident he was on his way practice. James never made it to practice because he was recovering in hospital. James found out he had damaged his leg and may not be able to play football as good as he did ever again. James was heart broken by this news knowing that because that one action his life had changed. Now James regrets that action because of his actions the outcome was tragic. Is it okay for him to regret that? The answer of yes is probable because he is still in hospital and the actions seem to be bad.

Now back to the example. James is now 25, and James is married and has a child on the way and a good job as a sales man. Does James still regret being stupid and tripping over into the road? The answer is again most likely yes. James believes he would have been a footballer if he had not had that accident. Let’s look a little more into James live, James is married to a girl called Joanna she is a 24 year old nurse and is currently having James’s child. Now for the point of this story, James met Joanna at hospital. The action of messing around by the road and changing his life does seem bad but yet he met the love of his life is happy and has no real damage from it. Does he still regret it?

I am sorry this story is not the best example but I feel the point is still viewable. To regret you are also regretting all actions that happened since the event you regretted. I regret a lot of single actions but I honestly feel that I have learned from most of the mistakes. Of course I would have preferred them to have no happened but the idea is you should learn to accept your decisions because you are living the result of them.

So where does luck come into this? Well was the action of being hit by the car unlucky or lucky? Would James have been a footballer or was he just going to fail like so many others at their dreams? For this we need to look at whether or not a group of actions on a whole can be classed as one stem of luck or a stem of bad luck. James was being stupid (his own actions may not be to do with luck), He tripped (bad luck?), he got hit by a car (bad luck?), he broke his leg and was unable to play football (bad luck?), he met the love of his life Joanna (good luck?), he managed to get his life back and get a good job (good luck?), he is now having a child with Joanna (good luck?). There is a lot of bad luck followed by good luck.

Does good luck and bad luck come in patterns or does it come in stems. The idea of a luck stem is something I thought about the other day. An action that one would consider bad luck may not be bad luck but part of good luck. Is there one set path, is there lots of paths and we decide our own path, or is there lots of paths that once finished new paths can begin. Even more likely do lots of paths happen at the same time? Can one path interact with another or is one stem of luck limited at one given time? To regret something are we regretting the stem of luck was choose?

Types of argument plus thoughts

There have been some comments that I do not back up my arguments on my site. I feel I should say something about it, seeing that my last three ideas for today’s posts failed…

Firstly I call what I say on here my theories, there for it is my theory. If it was an argument you would need a side to play, I do not have a side just saying one side. I talk about a lot on my site that I honestly feel could have/will/is happened/happen/happening. This does not mean I think it has/will/is happening just that I feel it could be happening.

I do feel I should read more theories and that it does look a lot more professional if you have ideas of other people to help with your ideas. Furthermore I feel that the quality of writing is better. Due to this being very short I will now write a few random thoughts at the bottom. This has been a idea of mine for a while now to have short thoughts just it is not very easy to make a post of something so short.

The following are thoughts:
Number 1:
If time travel is possible and we could create a machine to time travel how easy would it be to tell it where to go? We calculate our time around our sun the months, weeks, days and hours of our life time are calculated around that. But we are calculating it on something relative to us and not relative to the universe itself. Does that mean it would be harder to find the time we wanted? Although saying that if the machine could calculate what we thought one minute should be (our minute) it could calculate what the address was of that and work out the address of the other minutes.

Number 3: (this is not to be said to cause offence it was meant as a joke)
We all know what child abuse is but what is child use?

Number 4: let’s say for everything there are a right and a wrong. Somewhere in the universe for everything right to happen there is a wrong happening somewhere else. So if there has to be a right and a wrong, why is this sentence allowed? It talks about two things one is right and one is wrong yet if one has to be right and one has to be wrong then what’s stopping the wrong being right and the right being wrong and if this is right then half of the sentence it’s self is wrong making the sentence half wrong anyway right?

Number 5: With three things we are to know what to do next, those three things, what has happened, what was just happening and what is currently happening. With just that knowledge we have to use it to direct our path in life.

Return to lucidity and a session with the mirror

It has been a while since I had a lucid dream but Sunday morning I had two.
I was dreaming I was walking home after seeing Jo Jo the girl who helped me write the story last week. I was walking down my road when I noticed I was stepping further and higher than normal. I then decided to jump and went around 15 feet in the air. I realised I was dreaming and started to jump around each time going really high. This is not really normal for me as I tend to fly in lucid dreams. Looking around my road was sunny and I was crashing into people’s roofs braking slates and just enjoying myself.

I then thought I would go in my house but that failed and I woke up. Well I thought I did. I went to the bathroom to brush my teeth and get dressed. Looking in the mirror though I noticed I had longer hair and was already dressed. I looked in the mirror aware I was dreaming. I noticed a few weird things like motion was out. The mirror just didn’t keep up with what I was doing. When moving closer to the mirror I was further away in mirror. Looking close up I could see my face looked as if it was made of parts. Like when a movie has static it appeared to have a static when looking close up. My lips and eyes were all moving out of sync and at some times just changed completely to a new set of facial parts.

Just to double check I was dreaming I switched the light on and off and nothing happened. I then went back to the mirror. I tried to change my hair style and it failed it was almost as if I wasn’t looking at myself but more of an image that was distorted and still some how connected to my movement.

I then woke up. Laid there for a bit to try and remember it all. I have a few problems with the dream I had. The main being why did I check the light switch a second time? If I was really lucid I would not have needed to do that. Thinking about it even when I was jumping around earlier in the dream I normally fly and I still felt gravity in my dream. This has made me think something which I had thought of before. Did I have a lucid dream or did I dream I had one? If the latter is true then the conciseness is three layers thick. I have mine now which I use to write this. I lower level which was confused by the dream but then become aware and the level that thought he was in control by taking over from the lower level.

Over the last few weeks I have had three lines, three lives and just generally having the number three going around in my head. I think it was related to the whole launch of BBC Three when they were going on about three being the magic number. How ever over the last few weeks I thought what if the number three had something about it. This is not the first time three has appeared and will likely not be the last. What if we do have three layers of conciseness and we are only layer two? Or what if we are layer one?

Maybe I just had a lucid dream.

Abandonment

The following is a story I have had for a long time but had forgotten till the BBC show Eastenders kind of showed it with the Stacey and Bradley 2010 live story line. The idea is loosely based on the love story of Titanic 1997. To write it as a story I have had to adapt it to a placement. My idea did not have a place in which it would happen, just a story of what happened.

FRIDAY
There was a young male called Joey aged 21 who lived in London Twickenham he lived with his parents and would go on holiday camping with them yearly they was not poor but not well off enough to afford trips aboard.

The family had decided to go caravanning to a caravan site near an old derelict theme park. Joey hated going away with his family and felt he was old enough to not have to go and spend a weekend in a little caravan with them. He did not really like camping or caravanning and felt it was just a way of his parents saving money. Joey was an only child and it meant he had to go everywhere with his parents.

The family arrived at the camp site and Joey saw a sign for a funfair which made Joey think this may not be that much of a waste of a journey anyway. He thought the only thing near by was the derelict theme park. Joey said to his parents he wanted to go to the carnival but they wanted him to help set up the caravan. Joey is used to helping his parents out or going on walks on their weekends away. He would rarely meet anyone interesting to him and found the time away boring. He helped his parents out like normal and then he left his parents alone and went to the funfair.

The funfair was one of those places brightly lit with a love for the colour red. There were games on stalls with various things to do, Hot Dog vans and fast food everywhere. There were hardly any rides unless you include riding a donkey than had gone to sleep already. In background there was the theme park that just looked so much better. The theme park had only closed down a few years back and still looked like the rides worked.

Joey was standing around having a beer when he saw one of the men telling a young dark haired medium height girl that could have only been around 19 or 20 that she can’t stand near the stall. Not thinking Joey just walked up and said hi and paid to use the stall. It was one of those stalls were you throw balls to hit the cans placed in pyramid but the cans are weighted and the balls are too weak to not them down and you end up losing your money or winning a prize that’s less than the cost of the game. Joey then stopped the girl about to walk off and said “don’t you want a game?” She then introduced herself as Olive and had a go at the game. She didn’t really like the game and Joey could see she didn’t like it. Joey managed to win a fluffy toy prize which he gave to her and then they went off to get some food. There was a hill over looking the funfair and the theme park in the background where they decided to sit and eat their chips and sausages. Olive complained she was feeling cold and Joey put his arm around her.
Joey and Olive now finished their food sit there for a moment enjoying the view and Olive just sitting in Joey’s arms. Joey then introduces himself properly and tells her his age and that he is here in a caravan with his parents. She tells him that she is 20 years old and that she is also down there with family. To his surprise she lives in Teddington quite near to Twickenham. They talk about music taste and the movies they like. Then a silence fills the air as they are staring into each others eyes and their heart is beating and their surroundings become but a blur and their heads move closer, and their lips touch. The kiss seems to last forever and it seems to both as the perfect kiss and perfect moment.

The kiss comes to a natural end and they start to pull away, both eyes opening at the same time, looking each other in the eyes, a smile on Olive and a whisper from Joey saying “that was wonderful”. Now in silence both unsure of what to say for fear of breaking this perfect moment they are sharing. They lay back in each others arms and both still unable to speak fall a sleep.

The couple awake to a now closed funfair and being awoke by a member of staff. They slowly walk towards the exit aware the night is coming to an end and both wanting the moment to last forever. Joey asks Olive where she would like him to walk her to hoping to hear they are staying close. Hearing from her lips that they are staying in the same caravan site is wonderful. The couple now about to part say simultaneously “what you doing tomorrow?” with that they decide to meet early in the morning.

SATURDAY
Both awake early having not had much sleep, thinking of the night before. Joey ignoring his parents offers of breakfast and rushing out the door to where he is to meet Olive. Olive doing her make up wanting to look perfect for this new man she has met and cannot stop thinking about. Both arrive early with fear of having to leave the other one waiting, Joey first then Olive. Silence again as they see each other for the first time in what seems like ages. Both to break the since talk simultaneously and greet each other. Knowing that today will be there only full day together and they both are going home the next day, they want make this day perfect. “So what have you got planned for me today?” says Olive, Joey staring back at his beautiful dark haired girl in front of him replies “anything, everything, I would as long as I do it with you”.

Olive suggests a walk and they decide to go for a walk through the fields. A sound of a shotgun in the distance the couple decide to walk and see what is happening. The couple walking holding hands and in each others arms arrive at a field with “Do not trespass” written on a sign. The field is full of corn and in the distance is thatched roof summer house. The couple being to walk through the field and pick then eat some of the raw corn. The tastes nice and they both haven’t eaten anything since the night before, so are both quite hungry. They sit down for a while each eating some raw corn before starting to walk again down the ally like ways between the high corn crops.

Suddenly gun shots are heard and the couple shake as they are close by. They then hear a man shouting to get off his land. The couple now scared run towards the summer house and although they can’t see anything behind them feel as though they are being chased. They arrive at the summer house and then quickly climb up into the thatched roof. Both scared and their hearts beating fast and their breathing heavily trying to catch their breath. They hear the sound of someone running and look through a gap in the roof and see a man holding a gun. He runs into the summer house the couple hold their breath and hope he goes away. After what seems like eternity the man leaves and the couple can breathe again. Sweat running down each other they begin to kiss and the moment feels perfect and they make love.

The couple now lying exhausted with Olive lying on Joey’s chest in a bed of hay. The couple now speechless to the sensational feels they have just felt. They share a kiss and just lay in each others arms till they feel it is right to talk. Olive speaks and says “words cannot say for what was just experienced” Joey still speechless says “It was perfect, your perfect, when we go home tomorrow I want us to move in together or something”. Olive tells him of how she has quite a big house and that he could possibly move in with her. How that her farther passed away a few years back and that the house is too big for just her and her mother. The couple share another kiss and lay down for a while.

The couple then get down from the roof and head towards the town. They are both thirsty and requiring the toilet. The couple walk in each others arms and find a small town near the corn field. The couple go in a local café and but a drink and something to eat and use the toilet. The couple now leave and find a local public house. They decide to have a few drinks together and enjoy the rest of the afternoon just holding each other in the pub garden.

The couple leave the pub slightly intoxicated and go back to their caravan to get something warmer before heading to the funfair again. The couple now at the funfair decide to get a beer and some chips and sit back on their hill. Sitting on the hill where they had their first kiss in each others arms kissing and cuddling just looking into each others eyes. The moment is again perfect and Joey asks “what should be do know want to play some games?” Olive replies and tells him she wants to go in the abandoned theme park. Joey suggests they wait till later due to the amount of people around. The couple spend the evening drinking beers and spending money on the games. The time is getting late and the funfair is closing. The couple leave the funfair and wait till everyone has gone.

SUNDAY
Its now early morning and the couple attempt to get into the old derelict theme park. The couple find a wall that is not that high and push some crates up to it to help them climb over. Once in they are both scared and the theme park is lit only by moon light. The atmosphere is almost silent with only a slight sound of movement by animals in the distance. The couple walk around the theme park and look at all the old rides and signs. The look is very creepy yet intriguing there is rubbish on the floor boarded up stall windows. There are buildings in different states of decay and plants over growing through the floor.
The couple now starring a giant Ferris wheel, Olive says “I want to make love on the top of that Ferris wheel. Joey a bit shocked at what she just said wonders if it is safe but says “are you sure”. The couple then decide to climb up to the top. It is very easy due to the way it is built. The couple climb to the top and climb into the top carriage. The couple is astonished by the view from up that high. The couple start to kiss and cuddle and make love in the top carriage.

The couple are again sitting in each others arms still feeling the sensation that just happened. They kiss and Olive whispers to Joey “I want to spend the rest of my life with you” Joey smiles and the couple get dressed. Olive then shouts out “this is the best holiday ever!” whist leaning on the side of the cart. Joey concerned about the movement of the carriage says be careful and stands up. Olive says “is safe babe” and shakes the side and it gives way. Joey quickly runs to grab Olive before she falls but only manages to grab her arm. Olive is now hanging under the carriage unable to get up, screaming for her life. Joey crying as he is trying to hold on to her but unable to keep a tight grip. The both of them unable to get up crying and screaming for help realise that Olives arm is slipping. Joey tries to move and pull her up but just ends up sliding closer to the hole. Olive realising that she may not be able to survive is this moment holding on for her life. Then the carriage slips and Joey’s grip is lost. Olive falls to the floor with a thud and the atmosphere turn silent with the only sound of Joeys beating heart. Joey quickly climbs down and rushes to see if Olive is okay. Joey quickly calling an ambulance from his mobile and giving them the details when he hears Olive say “Help me”. Joey now is so happy that Olive is alive, rushes and picks her head up to kiss her only to notice the back of here head is wet from blood. Knowing that she may die the couple crying, and Joey screaming for the ambulance to hurry up, when Olive says “I wanted to spend the rest of my life with you”. Joey now clenching at Olive crying says “me to babe, me to”. Olive is now motionless and Joey crying over her, when Joey hears the sound of an ambulance. Joey tells Olive she will be okay but it is too late when the ambulance crew come they say she is already gone. Joey is now shocked and unable to really comprehend what has just happened breaks down in tears.

I am a man, men are meant to be strong, I wasn’t strong enough to save the love of my life, am I strong enough to go on?


The End


I have never read or written a romantic story and have never really written a story before. This was cut shorter to allow for more readers. The story is meant to be a perfect week but due to me not knowing what to fill a perfect week with I decided to make it a weekend. The word fill is key as I did not want to just fill the week up but make it the perfect week. I would find it hard to create such a perfect week without it appearing as I had just filled it with events that can happen. I wanted it to be real.

I wanted to capture the feeling of having found true love and it being torn away whist they are still confused by the feelings they have for each other. If the death would have happened much after they met it would not have been the same. Getting back to Eastenders Bradley dies on the night of his wedding this is a tragic feeling which I feel almost captures what I had wanted to write down or so long. The story is loosely based on my life, being chased in a field was real I was chased running with a girl when I was around 13 years old. We ran and hid in a summer house roof. I feel the derelict theme park could have been lost and replaced by the closed funfair. The name of the girl may also be better suited with another more common name. I hope you enjoyed the story. This story was written with help by a friend of mine a girl called Jo Jo/Joey.

Youtube Video The Soul Paradox - A Thought Experiment by vdizhoor

This video talks about an idea I really like: The cloning earth theory a while back that wrote is similar. What if the world we lived in was cloned yet the clone was made with slight differences. When was the last time you woke up to see something a little different yet you just accepted it?

Holidays

This post is smaller than a normal post so I will also add a YouTube video that I really liked but did NOT make. The video and the theory are not the same. In the future I may post other videos I like.

Brakes, Holidays, vacations, leave, trips, rest or what ever one call’s them. They are time away from doing what one normally does. But is this really needed or required? The body to rest requires sleep and food to allow it to live. Yet people feel the need to have brakes and holidays for sometimes months at a time. Is there really a need to have a holiday? If there really is a need to have a holiday and it is required to be outside of the normal comfit zone then why do people go around the world? Excluding education and experience is there a real reason to go around the world?

This post is probably one of the mainly narrow minded posts I have written so far. The point is not that holidays are bad or that people should take them but more so that is there a real reason to going on holiday for months in some place you know nothing about? I view holiday’s abroad as an expense and something that does not really attract me. I see it as Spain will always be there if I want to go to Spain and say “I have been to Spain” I can go anytime and if I die before I do then I have not really missed out on anything as someone else has likely seen it and spread the word. What I am interested in doing is exploring places that no one has seen or even thinks possible. I don’t like the subject history yet I would love to time travel…

The internet is us

For ages I had the theory we was only five minutes old. This was based on the fact everything we know is from memories and there is no way of proving something is that old without relying on memory. People reading this is likely think of carbon dating or their wedding day etc. But those are memories if your wedding day did not happen or carbon dating was not invented you would not know. The problem is people remember hearing about such and such or even have done such and such. If such and such never happened and memory was faked then we wouldn’t know how to approach anything.

I am only twenty one if my memory is right this is the first time I have said my age on my blog. Every time I want to know something I look it up in the internet for that it is easy for me to relate to this theory. What if we created ourselves and the internet is us. We think and can easily prove things happened before the internet yet the internet was the beginning of time itself. This theory is very hard to believe and I have very little to argue it but think about the following movie similarly.

A movie is created with background, and a movie is created in that we can relate to the characters and quickly believe we know them. A television show can take it further and really build on this and show the characters to be more life like. A soap opera can build even more. Now think about this, what if we could create a way to insert the memory of knowing the people on the television into the minds of the viewers? No back story and no having to over explain the past to the viewer. The viewer would be able to relate to the characters as if they knew them in real life. With this kind of access to the memory of the viewer it may become harder to understand what is or is not real. Children pretending to an action character with full memory of that characters life. If ten years of memory of a fictional character could be implanted into a five year old child then why wouldn’t the child believe it was that fictional character? Surely the memory used in this situation would be third person and not first person but all the same it may allow problems to be caused.

Now getting back to the internet and how we are the internet. If someone was to create a world in which everyone inside it believed they was real. The best way to create that would be to create history and background to make the story more believable. If everyone was put on an empty world and told to create something out of nothing what is stopping them doing completely nothing? To improve the chances of the characters of this created world living and creating and solving the problems they are presented with the internet is granted to them. The internet, a resource where by they can access the knowledge presented by the greater power and fool the readers into thinking it was created by them. The internet allows the characters of this reality to commutate, learn, educate others and be entertained. There was so much before the internet wasn’t there?

Mixed Messages

Have you ever had that disorientation that comes from having a conversation or having a memory of a conversation that never happened? Maybe you were in a shop and the person was saying they sold an item only to say later the item doesn’t exist. This is not a conversation where they just changed their mind. This is a conversation where they said something but it was later reedited.

Thinking back to computer patches this could be a conversation that is bringing up deleted features. If these features were so big that it could trigger memories or thoughts about those lost features then conversations about them should be removed.

An example, a simulated world allows the people of that world to fly, then it seems flying is causing problems and is removed. Everyone still has memories of flying so that is removed, but flying is still very big and birds can trigger memories. To not have to remove birds and everything that flies conversations about people flying is just changed. These changes are very careful to only modify the general idea of the conversation and not remove all of it.

Next time you think you hear someone say something only for them to later tell you they didn’t consider what would be different if they did.

The patching process

Last week the idea that all humans are connected and that there may be a way of contacting each other by other unknown ways. This post is much like that only taking it one step further than even the internet has gone.

The internet is a network of devices mainly computers. There are a lot of people who wish that the internet will allow them to, check if their oven is on and be able to turn it off from work, check their garage door is locked, open and close windows around the house etc. This kind of control is very much like how much like what could happen with out network of humans.

Consider that this world is controlled from another world. Much that like computers can be remotely accessed but everything including the location of your mobile phone is controllable by this network. Now consider this. There is an ultimate truth that is hiding and being covered up completely.

Think of a program that is forever getting patched because errors are present. This program that we call reality is one of those programs forever being patched. The problem is some people are completely artificial and others are just like me and you real but a prisoner in this program.

I don’t know how the patching works but what I think does happen is that it happens very fast. I call it the bed sheet patching method. The error is made, and sheet is placed over it covering the error. The person who is going to get into the bed will not see anything and if they did see something then they would be told a lie and made to believe it. The person gets in and does not know anything about the error. The process happens fast and the person getting into bed does not remember anything about the error. Think about more and more sheets covering up this error. Now apply this process to a street. A window has a big sign saying the answer to life, that window is removed a new window is placed. The non-artificial people walk past and do not see anything and those that do will consider it impossible and accept anything to make what happened possible, or simply forget.

There are people who will disagree with everything to do with the truth and choose not to believe at all. There are some who are open minded and will accept the truth like me, and there are some that wants there to be a truth so much that they will make their own truth up even though it is false. Some people reading this may feel I am the latter but I consider the latter as people who may be classed as having schizophrenia or some other mental health disorder. I do however feel they may know something they could be learnt or saw an error but tried ever so hard to remember it.

If you become aware of the process you will see an error and you will know the error is an error but 5 minutes later you will completely forget it. Even if you try to write it down you go “what was that?” and have forgotten it. I feel there must be a way to remember these errors and learn the truth.

The inter-network of the human race and the delay

In computer games there is a slight delay between the pressing of the button and action on the screen. There is still even a delay on the human body, when the brain tells the fingers to type or the eyes read, and there is a slight delay. This delay we know about but what if there was another delay? Charles Darwin said that all life on this world is related. We are all related to one another and yet each so unique. An earlier post of my related to wireless minds in that we are all controlled wirelessly, and this post will build on that.

Consider the internet as lots of computer inter-networked together to form the internet. Each computer has its own IP address and each IP address can be sub networked to allow more than one computer to work on the same network. Much like how a most homes have two computers and both can be online at the same time. They are likely to use a router and both have the same IP address. People can upgrade their computers and change components allow friends on their network etc. Now consider that the human race is the same. The human race is a group of computers inter-networked together. If a person has a child then that child is added to the network. If someone dies they leave the network. Each computer has memory to allow it to remember its relations to past events, and use it to help calculate how to handle current tasks. Much like how a human brain works.

So what has delay in computer games and computer networking got to do with anything? What if there this delay could be come larger or shorter? In networking it is called latency which is the delay between devices on a network. There is very little delay between devices on a computer which is limited by the speed of the motherboard bus speed. The brain calculates tasks much faster than any computers today, but still has to process these tasks. This processing means there is a delay. If going back to my previous post about wireless minds as well as how Darwin said we all related. If the human race is some how linked together, then there surely would be a delay.

Let us consider that all humans are inter-networked what could possibly be gained? The Internet allows entertainment, education, news and business possibilities. What are the gains of all humans linked together? The answer is maybe not as clear because we are only thinking of humans being linked together. What if every life form on the planet was linked together? We can commutate by sound and visions so why not by some other link? For computers to talk to one another a protocol is required for humans to commutate with one another and other life forms a protocol may be required.

I have a typing speed of only 70 words pre minute which is much slower than people who use computers less than I do. It was this that helped me come up with this theory. I thought what if everything we do is being delayed and the ones with the fast connections can do things faster than the ones without. Think of the possibilities if we could learn a protocol talk commutate without talking to not only humans!

Confabulation to prevent the truth

Consider if you will that this would that you a living in is not real. Various movies and theories have talked about this world not being all that there is. Even Plato in his cave analogy talked about what we see and experience only being part of what is really happening. But this theory is not the simulated world theory. This theory is an argument given what could happen and the mistakes that could be noticed there should be a way of cleaning it up.

Have you ever done something that someone else knows about but you wish they would just forget? Think about it in a larger scale what if the world had errors and mistakes. What if people could remember those errors and mistakes? Think in terms of computer games when a mistake or a problem is detected, the game company makes a patch or fix. This fixes the problem. Any new gamers would never see that error. But old gamers and new gamers that talk would learn about the mistakes. What about features that was once present but then removed? If the game is making constant mistakes then the game is not very convincing. Getting back to our reality if people became aware of that lack of this world and gained real prove that something else existed, then the reality around us would fall apart. We have the ability to learn and we have the ability to learn that this is not real. What if the mistakes and past features have been removed but are still very much happened. Consider this, humans had the ability to cast spells and magic, this was becoming a problem as humans could cause real damage to the reality around them. This feature was removed and all memory that was associated with it was changed or deleted. Books written about magic were re-classed as fiction, and people who managed to still believe were classed as crazy.

Whole lives could be changed and no one would ever know. The student theory, a student is very bad at exams and never reads or revises, having the ability to confabulate own memories. The student makes fake memories of having always read a book before an exam. When an exam is near the student will always remember reading a whole book before the exam and will relate to it being normal. The student will read a whole book before the exam. This could cause some problems. Such as if the student could not read very well could whole knowledge of reading be invented? What about how long before the exam should the student start reading? These problems would have to be ironed out. The student may become aware of certain problems with own memory. But what if the student could kind of remember what if the student could gain access to the real memories where no books were read? This new student would not be so perfect anymore.

If there are ways of accessing forgotten memories or becoming aware of this process then how could it be done? If something seems wrong then try hard to remember the last time it happened. Write down and make notes any aid to memory should work. But to gain access to this process will likely require some other ability. But if the world around you is not convincing enough to make you believe it is real, is it real? If it is then why is it not convincing?

delay in update

Due to exams there will be a delay in the post this week.

I know I use a lot of excuses sorry.

A right to die

This post I have wanted to write for a long time. The reasons behind why I did not will become clear to you. Where my argument differs with most is that I have included depression as a reason for euthanasia. This is not meant to mean people who are simply feeling down, but more about people who are feeling down for months and have tried to work out their problems.

Imagine a world where if one is ill, disabled, too old, or simply living a life not worth living. They could go and sign up to be humanely put to death. Euthanasia, the act of killing someone or oneself painlessly, is a hard idea to debate. Should anyone who does not want to live be forced to live? Should they be forced to die in a painful way if they are ill? Should they be forced to have to result in painful unrehearsed ways of killing their self? By making euthanasia illegal and giving no one a way out of their troubled unwanted life. What ever the reasons surely they should be considered? What about people dying and thermally ill? Those people are not even allowed to end their own life. The only option they have is to ask not to be resuscitated if they do die.

Who chooses who can die and who can’t? If it was as easy as to go into a suicide booth and pay a fee or even for free, there would be a lot of people rushing into it. There would be young men/women who have broken up with their loved ones, or have lost people important to them. There may even be people who are simply bored and fancy trying it out. Whatever the reason that people have there should be a way of preventing people who could have their problems solved.

Sign up to die, suppose of a register that people who are ill get put up closer to the top than people who simply want to die because their dog has died. People who wish to end their life would put their name down and upon doing so would have to talk to a counsellor and part take in therapy. At times whist on the waiting list there would be check ups. Should the person wish to no longer kill themselves then they will be removed from the list. Should the feelings come back they would return to their place in the list. This is to prevent people saying on the list simply because they do not wish to start the process again. There should however be a minimum time spent on the list. Someone who wishes to stay alive on the day they would have been killed. They should have to go back slightly on the list. The problem is the list should not be too long or people would simply not bother with it at all. All people on that list should be added to the organ donor list to ensure their death is a help to others.

Currently there are a large amount of people who choose to commit suicide and end up doing it in painful and distressing ways. Hanging, this if done wrong can leave a person in pain for over 20 minutes, or even can cause the person to become decapitated. Slitting the wrists, this is painful, messy and not always successful. This can sometimes leave the person with ugly scars which will forever remind them and others of their failure to take their own life. Drowning, this is painful, not always successful.
These are just some of the ways people choose to kill themselves and we have not even talked about the ways where they could endanger others such as driving or gun related suicides. Should someone who has wanted to commit suicide for a long time really be given no nice option?

I did have more to write but feel this enough and welcome the unfriendly comments on their post. Below is a quote and some links for further reading.

Quote from Wikipedia “The closest thing to a suicide booth to have been actually constructed is the "Euthanasia Machine" invented by Philip Nitschke, consisting of software titled "Deliverance", which asks the patient a series of questions, and automatically administers a lethal injection if the correct answers are made. The system and questions are so constructed that the supplier of the machine cannot be held responsible for ending the life of the patient, who takes responsibility by operating it.”

Links:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Suicide_bag
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Suicide_booth
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Euthanasia_device
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Euthanasia
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_countries_by_suicide_rate
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Suicide

And for those who don’t like Wikipedia links:
http://www.textfiles.com/magazines/IBFT/ibft038.txt Various ways to kill oneself.
http://aelinik.free.fr/suicide.htm
http://www.finalexit.org/
http://www.peacefulpillhandbook.com/

No post this week

Due to snow there will be no post this week!



Joking, well I am and I am not. There will not be any post this week apart from this one. I have work for college to do and like all good students have left it up until the last minute!

Sorry!

EDIT: I decided to post something I have wanted to write for ages anyway. I was feeling depressed and given the nature of what was wrote it is easier to write something like that when depressed. I also had this post called "no post this weed" so needed to edit this. In case you are wondering why I am depressed it is because of some work I failed to do for uni so nothing major but depressing all the same.

What makes you who you are?

Would you still be you if you could not remember anything? What is it that makes you who you are? If a bad man loses his memory does he forget to be a bad man? If a good man loses his memory does he forget to be a good man?

If a lot of what we do is related to what we have done, then surely if we cannot remember doing anything, we cannot relate to anything. It would then be easy to presume that one would not be able to know what to do.

What makes us what we are? When we see a gun we relate to it being a weapon. So if we did not remember what a gun was we would not be able to relate the fear required for it. The same could go for people we would not know who is our friend or who is our enemy. But does this mean someone with amnesia can completely change who they are or just who they are in relation to other things?

What causes someone to be good or bad? Is it upbringing? Is it genetic? If it is upbringing then if amnesia can remove all memories of upbringing would a bad person turn good?

On a side note though, I think it is amazing though that in movies when people have amnesia they still remember how to talk English and walk etc. This is likely due to them remembering basic things just not anything else.

Happy New Year!!

Happy New Year may 2010 bring more happiness than 2009!!